Thursday, December 1, 2011

Its been a long dark year for me........

Its been a long dark year for me. I have not setped into my studio except to drop things into it. It became storage. A depressing reminder of my life at that moment. Well I am here to tell you I have found my path and I am taking it head on.

It has been hard not talking to my DD this past year. I still have not talked to her. BUT the lines of communication are opening. She text me maybe it was just the size of clothes my two grandbabies wear but that was more then I have had.

I started breaking out of this funk Nov 17th on my granddaughters 2 birthday. She is enjoying lots of playfood from me for her new kitchen my father bought her. I have also gotten to see photos of the family since then as I was told about a private online photo sharing site they set up.

So here goes to everyone I owe something to its going to be in the mail before christmas. I am also including something extra for you.

I will also be reading all emails, blog posts and posting them even if negitive, and youtube updates. I will respond to those needing responce.

Everyday I steped foot into my studio there the tags sat looking at me on my desk. I just ignored them and the pains everything caused me, kinda like being numb. So now they are unburried and getting packaged up. I am getting boxes tomorrow while I am out, I was invited to a christmas party for the first time ever. That was so cool so tomorrow I am going and taking chocolate covered marshmallows that I made tonight while waiting for Tim Holtz 12 days of christmas.

I also have some other things happening in my life. I have applied for Social Security. I am hoping that I am not out of remission for my sarcoidosis but I have a feeling thats not the case with the aching I have been feeling. I go for an xray Friday.

So I know catching up will not make everything better. BUT I do promise that I will take it slow and work at earning your trust and friendships back.

I have thought about each and every one of you on a daily basis.

My studio was turned into a storage room since I got home from California when my grandbaby was born. I bought a vagabond in early march, and I have just taken it out of the box and used it tonight for the first time. I dusted of my gypsy and my cricut and used them as well. I cannot wait to see what else I can pull out of my stash and use.

Good night everyone and HAPPY DECEMBER.